I’m also taking a break from the whining about how hard my life is, to report that one of my cousins came to visit with his toddler a few weeks ago. My cousin is a single dad and yes, he’s in academic medicine.
When I’m pulling into the driveway after preschool pick-up, there is inevitably a part of me that looks for DP’s car, imagining that maybe he has come home in time for dinner. 19/20, or more likely 29/30 times, this does not happen. But-that 30th time, it does happen. As much as I would love to have family dinner, I am extremely grateful to have a partner to share (balanced or not) in parenting, in household responsibilities, in keeping a roof over our heads. This was particularly clear last week, stuck at home with the kids for days on end. And on the last day, counting down every.single.minute. of Caillou/Super Why/Anything, just trying to keep them distracted while I threw up over and over again. I am pretty sure when DP walked in the door, he was backlit with a distinct glow and an angels’ chorus was definitely there somewhere.
I imagine, as a single parent, you don’t necessarily have the luxury to mull over this or that flavor of your still-essentially-over-educated-career-path*- you do what works best for your family and move on. DP works long enough hours that I may feel like I act like a single parent, but I truly have no idea what it’s like- knowing that 30/30 times there will not be another adult at home for dinner. Not having someone to join you in doing bad imitations of your kids after they go to bed. Not having someone to walk in the door, get the kids fed and bathed and put to bed, so you can go clean up your vomit-y self and get into bed.
Single parents, I bow down to you.
*He recently switched from research to clinical track, when it became obvious that the money and time was better. No surprise there: traditional academic medicine tracks: optimized for those with a stay-at-home spouse.